This is not what I want =(

It's Chinese New Year.. But I could not help it... I am really upset.. CNY suppose to be happy and fun...

However all I could feel now is sadness and loneliness... I got no one to talk to... Trapped inside my bedroom alone.. This is not I want.. It's very depressing.. I have no friend around here to go out with... I have nowhere to go...

This is the first time I feel so sad during CNY besides breaking up with my ex boyfriend around CNY few years back.. At least I feel I have friend back then.. Now after graduated, no friends no jobs... My life is fucking pathetic..

Boyfie also seems dead to me now because I fucking hate what he did... I need to find something to do soon else I will go nuts...

xoxo